Life is like a book and each new year symbolizes the next chapter. Unlike the chapters of a normal book, the chapters in our lives are blank. We get to script what we want on those pages.
We are there yet again; about to open a new chapter in our lives. We all want to write a good one. I do, especially because it's the beginning of a new decade and 2019 has been a crappy year for me.
No one can go back in time and change what happened. They say you have to put the past behind you so that you can forge a good future. But what if you're stuck in the past? Because I can't seem to move on from 2019.
Everyone suffers at least one betrayal in a life time and it's always done by the people we trust the most. Betrayal hurts as though someone stubbed you with a double edged sword right through your heart. Well, that has been 2019 for me in a nutshell.
When it happens, we just want the pain to go away. We just want to forgive and move on with life. But how do you forgive if you never got an apology? How do you forgive if the people that hurt you show no remorse? How do you forgive when you still have so many questions? Like, why would someone you trusted and made sacrifices for choose to stub you in the back?
Well, I learnt that, not everybody has the same heart as yours. The person you're making sacrifices for right now will one day turn around and tell you that they didn't ask you to. And they will be right.
We all want closure but if we cant find it, those bad memories creep up on us in our dreams and in our thoughts hurting us like it would sprinkling salt on a sore open wound. Sadly, we may never find that closure we seek. We just learn how to move on.
It's now that time whereby we make resolutions and mine is to have the best year. It's not every day you jump into a new decade. It's not every day you jump into a year that rhymes;2020. I will move on with this broken heart from 2019 because I believe Jah has always been and will always be with me.
